New Beginnings for Little Princess

My little princess will join the Primary 1 cohort in 5 days, a milestone in a kid's life that usually gives parents the jitters. But not me! While little one is so excited about her first day at school, I am wondering what can I do with the extra hours that I will be gaining with her in school.

Most of my friends’ children are already in Primary schools and I have been told what to expect. I know my girl will adapt in her new environment. She is very sociable and independent even as a preschooler. She is just like her dad who makes friends so easily.

Books have been labelled with nicely printed name tags and wrapped in their respective covers. Uniforms altered. The first white canvas Bata shoes. Snoppy pencil case stocked with 8 new sharpened pencils. (waiting to see how many pencils she come home with after a week) All she needs now is a hair cut.

Mummy wishes you all the best as you embark on your formal education journey. You will have lots of fun and I know you will make me a happy mummy even as you shred the baby cuteness in you.

Dedicated to the Someone Special

One of my favourite song lately.....

 

A Thousand Years - Christina Perri
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday
waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty I know she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything
Take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath,
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday

Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid,
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

Beautiful Lesson - Life Is Short!

The girl in the picture is  Katie Kirkpatrick,  she is  21 .  Next to her, her fiancé, Nick, 23.  
The picture was taken shortly before their wedding ceremony, held on January 11, 2005 in the US .
Katie has terminal cancer and spend hours a day receiving medication.
In the picture, Nick is waiting for her on one of the many sessions of chemo to end.

In spite of all the pain, organ failures, and morphine shots, Katie is going along with her wedding  and took care
of every detail. The dress had to be adjusted a few times due to her constant weight loss  

An unusual accessory at the party was the oxygen tube that ketie used throughout the ceremony and reception as well.
The other couple in the picture are Nick's parents. Excited to see her son marrying his high school sweetheart.

Katie, in her wheelchair with the oxygen tube ,  listening a song from her husband and friends

At the reception, katie had to take a few rests.The pain do not let her to be standing up for long periods

Katie died five days after her wedding day. Watching a women so ill and weak getting married and with a smile on her face makes us think..... Happiness is reachable, no matter how long it last. We should stop making our lives complicated.

Life is short
Break the rules
forgive quickly, love truly
laugh constantly
And never stop smiling
no matter how strange life is
Life is not always the party we expected to be
but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful.

Live every day as if it it my last

" Life is not measured by the number of breaths you take but by the moments that take your breath away."- Hilary Cooper

All of us will die one day. Nobody can escape this. For me, I look forward to that day knowing that there is my love waiting for me where we will be reunited once more in God's kingdom. With this knowledge, we cannot keep planning to do great things and planning to take action only when we feel like it- we have a time limit here on earth. So live everyday like it is the last day of your life. Take action now and live with no fear, no regrets.

Letting Go

I have let go. I feel lighter and at peace now. When you truly love, you care for his happiness and his well being. To love Is not to have. To love is to have him in your heart forever. Praying that he is well and smiling always is loving unconditionally even when he is not with you.

To feel blessed to have been loved once. To be thankful for the brief union. To be contented to have been the love in his life once. To know that we shared once.

Let him go. If it meant to be, God will lead us back to one another.

From a Dear Friend to Another

Whenever I read news about the sudden death of a celebrity, memories of how my love left me will resurfaced. Today I read that the singer actor of Chang and Eng passed away over the weekend. He was only 37 and I was looking forward to catching him in the year end Christmas show.

As I write this entry from Hawaii, I delicate it to a very dear friend of mine who is currently living in a life of fears and maybe a little regrets.

My friend, Live for today and be happy. Life is too short for regrets and unhappiness. Or fearful.

I came across a wonderful and insightful poem in a book over here titled "There's a hole in my sidewalk" which goes like this:

Chapter 1
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost... I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes me forever to find a way out.

Chapter 2
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in the same place.
But, It isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

Chapter 3
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in...it's a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.

Chapter 4
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

Chapter 5
I walk down another street

The Ripple Effect

"Mourn not just for the loss of what was but also for what will never be." - Karen Katafiasz

How can anyone made such a irresponsible remark to a kid? How can an intellectual human being comment to a child that her mother has forgotten about her dad who has passed on years ago. To tell the child that her mother has forgotten about her dead husband as she is rebuilding her network of friends and getting her life back and leaving the child for a few hours in the care of the grandfather.

I want to tell the person who made this irresponsible remark that losing someone close especially through death is not a one-fell swoop blow. After the numbness wears off, after the shockwave of sadness knocks us to our knees, we come to another sobering realization. The hits just keep on coming- loss after loss after loss...

When someone close dies, it triggers a chain reaction. Not only is that person gone, but our shared dreams and goals are gone as well. The plans we had- never to happen. The hopes and possibilities gone. The future we envisioned- not to be.